Recently, I have visited the classroom of the teacher that I will be working with when I student teach in the fall (I'll call her Mrs. B.). I will be team-teaching with a friend and fellow student teacher from my program. We will be working with Mrs. B. this summer to put together our syllabus and curriculum for the classes we will be teaching. Typically, fall student teachers begin 2 or 3 weeks after school has already started, but we will be starting from day 1 as the "real teacher." Mrs. B. said that she doesn't even want the students to know that we're student teachers. This is great, because I think I will get more respect from the students if they see me as their main teacher and not as someone that's in the way of their actual teacher, but I am SCARED TO DEATH! The problem with it is that I have yet to see myself as a teacher, much less how to lead a class from the first week on! I still feel so much like a student that I'm having trouble flipping the roles. I've been out of high school for 3 years and married for nearly 2, but I still feel super young when it comes to these things! Since I see myself this way, I feel that others do too. I'm afraid that the students will see right through me and figure out that they can walk all over me. I guess I don't see myself as "adult" enough to tell "kids" what to do. In the teacher education classes I'm told to be assertive, not passive, to be their teacher, not their friend. I agree with this 100%, but I have trouble making it a reality.
I am hoping with the next 3 months to prepare, I can change my mindset and become a genuine teacher in my own mind. Now enough about my insecurities with teaching, here is a short, humorous, video clip (aroung 11 minutes) about how math should be taught and how it is not taught in the best way in most math classrooms. It was great inspiration to me to do what it takes to get kids excited about math and involved in conversations about it because "math is the vocabulary for your own intuition."
Hi! Thanks for stopping by. My name is Erinn and this blog is all about my family. Josh is my amazing husband of 5 years. Talon is 2 and lights up each day with his cute smile. Baby boy is on the way due next spring. Cougar and Ozzy are our labs.
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That was an interesting video! Thanks for sharing. You will be such a great teacher Erinn! It sounds like Mrs. B is doing her very best to help you succeed. :) If we don't fear things, we usually don't prepare as diligently. You can still be scared, but you'll be ready!
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